Battles- In Random

We all share our degraded, upgraded, lousy, crazy, sad, happy, guilt full, whatever emotion or adjective you want to attach to your life with one common word called "Battle". It starts right from who will win the race to fertilize an egg to how fast i can eat my original recipe KFC leg piece & run back to my monotonous professional life in an office cubicle shared by 2 semi-racist, nut cases who fight with each other like newly wedded couple who are discovering, who dominates the relation!...Battle!!

I feel its never ending. We just pretend that life is all set & there is nothing to worry about than suddenly BooM!!!! something happens which makes your heart beat faster, adrenalin rushes, could be something which will make you worry or make you feel you sitting on a hot seat, eagerness of knowing what will your appraisal letter carry or sometime even happiness makes you battle with your own tears!!! Battle....could be for you....with you...cause of you...or just against you

Never thought I will be linking everything to such a negative word; but before I go on with my version of Battles, I have a questions...who labels words as negative or positive?? I just now mentioned that battle has positive and negative effect, so why label it as negative word?? Why to label at all?

Anyways....lets not drift away....I never believed that life can be easy but when you keep fighting for every goddamn thing you need or want...than you need some kind of analysis done...may be on yourself or on life or may be on your existence itself!! May be on your own....may be from someone else.. I always choose the second option, seemed much easier & convenient.... slowly I realised...the answers I received from someone else...those were someone Else's point of view.....so were does my understanding of My Life stands?? So I changed, I made myself as Field Marshall and decided to take matters in my hands....

Things looked pretty good...for a while....yet again...I was woken up to a rude shock that I Am In A Never Ending BATTLE!! Why did Murphy's Law got famous? Cause people realised there can/will be always some kinda trouble in God's Paradise. Shook by the reality I tried coping up with what was left with me. God has given us a great power...Adaptability. Whatever happens, however futile it may be...We, humans walk the dark soil again just with a hope of growing greens for living. That's what I did/do ....every freaking time. Hey am not complaining that we have to go through SSD(hope you know this syndrome!) but what am saying is how many times we can handle ourselves to recoup & get on with our lives.

I am sure few will be thinking by now...too many "I's" and "Me's". Well, "I" am writing this blog....with an effort to understand & identify how can the damage from this Battle which we keep getting into be reduced,,, so I will be quoting allot about "me" and "I" and in few instances you too. So, just hang on with me.

Did you just realised, I explained why am I talking about myself so much. Giving you a classic example of trying to win a Battle of your confidence to read my blog. Funny isn't it???? We don't even realise that we can be such good soldiers in Battle fields. Well it's just a matter of your brain and your body getting trained to the whole exercise. That's why we have all these military training academies don't we?

The other worrying fact in this Battles in Life is ..Who wins it?? How do you know who's the winner?? When one looks/feels right & you go ahead and raise it as winner... later you realise that it was a wrong decision, how do you undo? The decision has caused a ripple effect on everything and trust me when I say everything cause I have personally witnessed these effects. (For records, they are very scary!) How? Well, we wake up again & again try to grow some greens around for good living but please remember we still don't know the right answers.. we just choose to walk away from it, try to forget the whole episode....however you want to put it across....ultimately..... we just ignore and move on.

I/We have lost allot in these Battles, have also won allot in these Battles but somehow I feel..... We loose our Identity in this journey, in this series of Battles but like Robert Frost has rightly said-

THE WOODS ARE LOVELY, DARK AND DEEP,

BUT I HAVE PROMISES TO KEEP,

AND MILES BEFORE I SLEEP,

AND MILES BEFORE I SLEEP.